Very, Very Sleepy

This is me, very, very, very tired. i had just gotten to work and wanted to send my baby, J, a picture. These days, me getting out of bed consists of, at the very least, 3 alarms going off five minutes apart (5 10, 5 15, and 5 20am) then me hitting snooze every five minutes until i finally... say okay... i'm up! and at the same time and sit straight up, legs off the side of the bed and head up! then the rest of my morning continues. I usually cover Max's head, poor thing, why should he have to get up? Then again, i could get him back for waking me up so much, when i can actually sleep in! and drag myself to the bathroom. I'm out the door by 6 at the least. So i can be at the hospital by 6 25 or so. I know my shift doesn't start until 7, but its one of the occupations where, if you're early, you're on time, if you're on time, you're late.

So, tomorrow, i have class, and, with the help of my friends in class, i know, friends right? we figured out we'll probably have a "Pop" quiz tomorrow. the quizzes are unannounced and we haven't had a single one yet. So it's safe to say, tomorrow a quiz, esp since we have a test next week. So pray for me, i'm wearing down, need to finish a concept map and a critical thinking "reflection".... hummm..... Nursing School.

Just a Monday

Twenty-something and in nursing school. Sunday, I had to leave J early to go home and work on a paper that I hadn't even started to research, and also get a movie from blockbuster that my group had to watch for school, J had taken me off his blockbuster account (when we broke up about four months ago), so I couldn't rent the movie on the way home from his house. I got angry. I had just pulled into blockbuster when he realized this. so an arguement stemmed from that. we keep going in these circles, over and over again. I really know that we need to break out of this cycle. It's wearing me down, over and over. But we are going to take care of that as soon as possible.

Right now i'm at honda... again. This time my keyless entry is acting up. The entire car locks, alarm goes on and everything, but the driver side door, for some reason, opens. The alarm doesn't sound, it just opens right up. Great for the convicts out there, but not for me. so i'm here, the day after i realize it, to get it fixed so that no one steals my car.

I also have a md appointment today at 3 30pm. i'm hoping i get out of here on time, my fingers are freezing, all i've eaten are my wonderful 5 seed almond bars, a tall white mocha, and part of a dr. pepper. My day will get better. Tomorrow I don't have class until 12 noon. I'm looking forward to that.

Class after the Test,

This is class as we prepare for lecture. our class is so large we had to be in two seperate classrooms. I think I should have studied a bit more. there are 85 people in my class. As you can tell, they are not all in this picture. this is the biggest classroom in the nursing school. Right now everyone seems to be worried about graduation. we still have a few weeks. everything is pre planned let it go! they will. nervous nellies as they call them. I am unable to listen. QUEENS WILL ORCHESTRATE EVERYTHING. WE HAVE NO SAY WHAT SO EVER. this is as we are talking im getting annoied. 2 hr for graduation then traffic etc... P.S. we do not get our coke machine refilled enough. i am drinking diet coke. uck. i want sprite or dr pepper cherry coke or something else etc... i'm complaining. Deep breath caroline deep breath. only a few hours.

Can you believe I completely forgot to go to my gradmothers yesterday! I forgot I was supposed to even go. I felt horrible. I am going to try to go today after class. she even made a dish i love! HER meatloaf. it's so yummy. So, Donna Shepard is still talking and we are going to talk about renal stuff. She is talking so fast I can barely keep up. she is telling a story right now so I have sometime. Kidney stones... blah da blah blah. more to come.

Where's Waldo? I mean, where's Max? he doesn't have his snow suit on, so this one should be a little tougher. Oh and I dare not step outside of the screened porch, I might melt. Lol, no I didn't have shoes on. Max loves the snow, hopping through it, if you know Max, you know that is what he does... he hops through grass and others instead of running. Hopefully Ill put on some shoes later and get better pictures. It's stopped snowing.. i might want to do that sooner then later...

This is my Max, a one year old Maltipoo, who wins the hearts of almost everyone he meets. I have to say this isn't the best picture, but it is the most recent. This was taken tonight when we went on a trip to the local chinese place to grab some food with J (the love in my life). Max is wearing a "letter jacket" that S bought for him for Christmas. It's adorable. much more manly than the other outfits I have!

Max is my completely unconditional love. It's different from the love of a person, because Max is fluffy, soft, and is so excited to see you even though you had to leave him at home all day because you had to work. Sometimes, he drives me absolutely crazy, but a few good kisses when you are just feeling a little blah, are all you need!

So today, on the way to class at 7am. I get into my car... which is acting, a little shaky... but you would be too if it was 14 degrees outside! That is the coldest I can ever remember in my short lifetime. It takes my car longer to warm up than usual, but i am bundled up, with me scarf, leather fluffy black Eskimo jacket, with hood on and gloves. That is a big deal for North Carolinians'!

To back up to earlier this morning, class wasn't until 9 today, so i was able to sleep in until 0630!! wow! lol, but I put on my fluffy robe, given to me by my mother a few Christmas's' ago, and my slippers, which she also got... wow she keeps me cozy! , picked up Max (my maltipoo) and go downstairs. I put on his "sleeper" as I call it, Ill have to post a picture! and let him out... he is so eager! He runs outside, I go inside and start the coffee. then, I hear a bark... but not from the back, from the front!! AH! I'm scared he is through the woods and barking at the Mastiff across the street.
I run to the front door, and luckily he is sitting in the front right near the deck. I grab him and take him inside saying "what do you think you are doing!" S comes downstairs at that time and says he probably got out because the gas man probably left the gate open. Good- don't have to worry about a huge hole under the fence.

That is my big story for the day... it is only 9:42. and i am in class... talking about hemodialysis. by the way, it's cold.

After the bad day... the Good Stuff

So, today... was horrid. but I found myself wanting a hot cup of tea, a comfy chair and well... anything. i just wanted the tea and chair. I sat in class from 7 to 4 today listening to lectures. I would have loved to have had a comfy chair. I kept moving and fidgeting, i couldn't get comfortable.

When I went to lunch from 11-12, i think, i was determined to just leave, and not come back and listen to another four hours of lecture. But something brought me back. On the way back i got warm (it was the jacket, believe me it was cold today!) so i rolled my driver's side window down a bit, but before i even got it to stop... it was getting stuck! Stuck! really! (yesterday I bought out my leased civic- which had to be inspected, and well the window tint wasn't legal, so they had to scrape it off.) I tried to roll it back up but it would literally stop and roll down even farther! by the time i was done trying to even get it up... it was 1/4 of the way up. Erg, was I mad! But I was going to class, so i drove back to school, hope and prayed before leaving my car to fend for itself, that no one would steal it, or take anything out of it etc... I called Honda and told them in the most Southern Bell-ish way, that I was upset, and i would be there as soon as class got out. So class was rough, boring, confusing, anxiety ridden and scattered but i made it to 4, and walked back to my car. Which was safe and sound! Thank you God!

I headed onward to Honda, once i got there, i was sure they knew i was coming in, and what was wrong. But they didn't. That's okay I had my buddy Jimmy, the best customer service, service guy there. Time passed and Jimmy came to me and said that basically that the guy who took off the tint did a "crappy" job. But! He had everything set. They had put the window back up, he told me not to roll it down for any reason, the parts would be here Saturday, but he want a certain tech to work on it, so wait until the week. So I finally headed home. Mind you, I have been at Honda everyday this week so far.

But needless to say, when i got home, i sat down and talked to S and M about the horrible day, I was relieved it was finally over. They were going out and I am doing exactly what I wanted to do. Drink hot tea, sit in a comfy chair and ____________. Study of course. It's the life of a twenty-two something- in nursing school.