Interviews and Valentines

I wish I could make this look all nice with pink and red tissue and a ribbon, but i resorted to the back on my car on a blanket. I wanted to blog about it before V-day. J's mom gave this to me when we had dinner Tuesday night. It was a nice surprise and they chocolates were really good! And just enough for me, I'm not a big chocolate person. Thank you D.

Yesterday, I had two interviews. I was running late (which seems to be how I am lately), I didn't like what i was wearing, my hair wasn't working right, I hadn't eaten, I slept from 7pm the previous night to 7am thursday morning. I had to be at the hospital at 8 15. Max was following back and forth from bedroom to bathroom. I got there at 0830 which is when my first interview was. I was taken to my first interview, the CVI (cardiovascular institute). Three people interviewed me for this area. I didn't have the right answers.... blah I left thinking "I so bombed that, darnit." I went back to the room, where we were to wait. I decided that I needed a different outfit, I needed to eat, and I needed my medication. (I didn't even wake up to take my BP meds that night.... not good, causes headaches and elevated BP and HR) I called my mom, over and over and over.. and over again until she answered. she was still asleep as i knew she would be. i explained what was going on and she knew exactly what to give me and pepped me up a bit. J was able to go to moms and get the pants, and bring them all the way uptown to the hospital. I met him outside and he gave me a pep talk, which I really needed. I don't know what i would do without him. My saving grace, and the man that makes me want to be a better person. And get this, he was on the way to the courthouse to pay my ticket that i had gotten for speeding on my way to work a month ago. like i said my saving grace.

I went inside and back to my home unit. I changed and asked some of my nurse friends how i looked what i should say and etc.. My last interview was with O.R. I was really looking forward to it.

The interview went so well! I had talked to one of the recovery room (from an operation) nurse's and she had taken her time to go and find Ed, the nurse manager for the OR, to tell him, "you need to get her, she's good!". That made me happy! and I do think that it helped! I talked to him for almost 45 minutes! and he offered to let me observe some surgeries! To get a feel for the unit, and get more comfortable. He did not offer me a job, but I don't believe anyone was offered a job today. I don't know. I can't wait to go observe! I would love to work there and I think that is my first choice! Pray for me!

Happy Valentines Day!

Birthing Angels

Today in class we were talking about end of life care, and they were talking about hospice nurses, the hospices nurses have been known to say: while maternity nurses bring babies into the world, hospice nurses birth angels.

The picture I found i'm sure is a little well weird, but its what google had to offer.

It finally hit me.

So, the economy problems that have been reaking havoc on the world around me, hit really close today. A very close friend of mine lost their job. It's almost hard to realize that we really are in a recession, just by looking around your house, or in the nieghborhood, I was looking at Max today and thought how wonderful it was, sun shining, crisp cool air and... oh yeah ___ lost their job, this sucks. I shouldn't be happy in a time like this, while others have their life crumbling around them. I'm not happy, but I'm okay. I have a steady job and a career... okay well almost, but i'm missing a few things i had almost a year ago. wow, how i've seemed to mess things up lately. But I'm working on them, I've got some professional help going on... lol, it's the truth, I'm gonna fix me, before i hurt anyone else.

Please pray for a few things:
my friend finding a job
my father's business
the "me" project
and the finding a nursing job in the struggling economy project

I need to remember that I do have things to be thankful for:
a wonderful small group
ill get back to you on that....

Brunner & Suddarth's Textbook of Medical-Surgical Nursing (11th edition)

Happy Studying! no not really. I've never had to read my nursing (med-surg) book until now. I decided the notes I had taken from a certain teacher... weren't helpful, and if i wanted to learn it, I better read it! So here i am in the kidney section (Renal for you nurses) it's talking about nephrons and the entire kidney system... it's almost like wadding through all the tiny details... just so you can get the point of what the kidney does. I learned anatomy 3 years ago! for godness sake! I'll make it. I will...

Randomness

I was trying to explain to Amy this week how it feels to have a mini-anxiety attack. I had written it down in my journal.

If you've ever had IV contrast dye, where when they push it through it makes you "warm" all over, thats how it feels but no warmth. A rush of something going through me, i'm sure its adrenanline or something like that. "like a sting, almost like a scared shaky chill (like a cold chill)" is exactly what i had written. You feel uneasy, self-conscious etc...

I don't like it, but sometimes it goes away really fast and sometimes it lingers. I mean it eventually goes away, my god or id be in the looney bin. lol, maybe i already am, it's just a very liberal looney bin.

As far as my nursing future, I don't know where I'm going to work. I thought I had known that forever, but I was apparently wrong. There aren't any available positions open at this time. which sounds right because we have been adequately staffed lately.

thoughts are done for now.

A trip to Myrtle

This is me, trying to take a picture of Max with my cell phone and being unsuccessful. This picture was taken by J, thankfully. This morning we woke up and decided to go to the beach. And within 30 minutes we were out the door heading toward south carolina! We wanted to take Max to the beach, knowing he would love it! As you can tell its a little cold, and J wouldn't let me put on Max's "sleeper" as I call it, it has footies and all! so Max liked it, except the wind blowing him away part, he didn't like that too much. But summer will come and we will take him again! Okay off to bed! it's been a long day!