Randomness

I was trying to explain to Amy this week how it feels to have a mini-anxiety attack. I had written it down in my journal.

If you've ever had IV contrast dye, where when they push it through it makes you "warm" all over, thats how it feels but no warmth. A rush of something going through me, i'm sure its adrenanline or something like that. "like a sting, almost like a scared shaky chill (like a cold chill)" is exactly what i had written. You feel uneasy, self-conscious etc...

I don't like it, but sometimes it goes away really fast and sometimes it lingers. I mean it eventually goes away, my god or id be in the looney bin. lol, maybe i already am, it's just a very liberal looney bin.

As far as my nursing future, I don't know where I'm going to work. I thought I had known that forever, but I was apparently wrong. There aren't any available positions open at this time. which sounds right because we have been adequately staffed lately.

thoughts are done for now.