Joy

I noticed today, while I hopped in Rich's car for my ride home from work; digging through my purse, I found my joy.  it's a stone rich and i bought at luke lure, at the gem store there.  and it was a cheap thing, something to say that we bought something from the place we parked our car... it has turned into something I try to always carry with me.  Especially at work. Work lately has been expecially challenging lately with staffing troubles, due to the horrible weather we had... which started on Monday, my day off, Light fluffy beautiful snow.  then the sun came out, a little bit melted away... and then turned into a thick layer of ice on top of the snow.  Which we have been fighting the last two days.  rich has been able to take me to work, luckily.  I don't want to leave them understaffed by a nurse, a CNA you can handle, but a nurse, you can't replaced without a manager taking there place.  I'm going to stop there.
Joy is to be with me at all times. I love Joy.

Love vs Love

You know, when I first became a christian, i thought to myself, wow, i have everything i need, i don't need joe (name sub).  I have God's love and that is all I will ever need.  i can do anything with him in my heart and living within me.  i actually thought about breaking up with joe, seriously, but i couldn't because he brought me to Christ and we were in love.  and i was just listening to a faith hill song, i realized, the love, that we experience down here on earth is completely different than the love and grace that God gives to us. 
I am guilty of believing that there is nothing better than the heart felt love and flutter in your soul.  the happiness that person brings, but i feel like i've gotten past that, heck maybe i should be a nun!!
I remember living in the Smith's (sub there too) house and looking at the photographs there over the bookself, some from africa, some of christmas cards, a calendar that reminded me of precious moments stuff.  I remember the Smith's telling me how much i've changed, and to me, i didn't see any change, but i was happier, i stopped dwelling on the past, (that i should 've stayed at wcu and got my BSN) and looked only to what was in front of me, and what i could control, and let God control everything else.  I don't know what happened, honestly i was pulled by temptation away from a perfect life that i had built.   another one of those i've loved along the way, as joe would say

Missing: Yellow Perfect Size Teapot

I have recently missed placed a wonderful gift that was given to me by a dear friend.  A little yellow teapot, I believe bought at a little antique shop, but it has more sentimental meaning more than anything. A person who introduced me to tea, and to pause; and take it all in.  A person that has always had faith in me, who continued to love me even though I wasn't perfect.  for all the love in the world, and the love you lead me to; the love of Jesus Christ.  Love you.